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i just dont like this feeling when hud and i are both busy and suddenly, his mom called and told me that his flight to paris is on the 20th of june.
i would prefer to hear it from hud but whenever i asked, he will go  "aaaa, tak tau".
so there u go. he'll be flying again to paris. myb for a month or two. *sigh*
he has been telling me that 1 month is very short and he compares it to the time i took to prepare for my finals and my pratical training.
and yes, ive been doing this thing call work for a month already.
and yeah, u got it right. working is not something i would love to do right now as hud is going back 'home' already.
im v sure that ill miss him cos while im writing this, i am already sad. ok2. gedik kejap. hee.

we choose what major we want because it is most likely the thing that we are interested in doing or it attracts us

well. some people just dont get it. eg : MY SUPERVISOR
he is passionate abt electronics that he has to drag me along.
i am majoring in instrumentation, and i think it wasnt clear enough for him to notice,i have almost 20% only knowledge in electronics.
and he kept on repeating that there are things i should not forget.
but hey, i dont think ive learned it in class/
i can probably say that i know a bit of the basic but not entirely.

i just dont get it.

and to make things worst.
he messed up with everybody. including me.

im stressed. that's all i can say
and hud on the other hand is making it worst. i just hate it when he sellfish-ly thinks of himself.

i want a edward-ly boyfriend. hmph.

i am almost a-one-month trainee.
and i find that working is not something i would like to do.
because i always get to find a reason for me to go back half day or i dont have to be at the office for the whole day.AMAZING right.
fyi, i am not working at my uncle's office. it's his friend's office.
the supervisor is quite straight i must say.giving me jobs with the oppurtunity to go out from the office and get my job done.
is something i am not really good at.
i always find myself back to my hse or pick up hud for a movie or smthg. heeehee
but i wont deny that receiving the pay check is quite exiciting.. heee

the task which take me weeks to complete is the malaysian standards.
and it takes me forever to download it from the net.
and he, the supervisor told me to go to sirim on friday to get the standards that i need. and i dont have to be in the office the next morning.
so,the night before, i went partying with friends and bf. it was extremely FUN!
it was my first time partying with the BF and partying is not something he is into.
but luckily, his friend wanted to go there. so, he was left with no option, except to accompany him.its a win-win situation for me and his friend.

i was suppose to pick up mumy the next morning at 6.30 but unfortunately. i fell asleep.aha.mumy called a few times and she decided to take a taxi.
and i was awake when mumy and adik arrived because they make to much sound.
i went back to sleep and woke up at 11,when mumy wakes me up.
and we headed to midvalley. hee.
friday was a leave day for me. but i was suppose to go to sirim. haha.
however,i did all the task he gave. thanks to the internet. i dont have to go to sirim.

 
did i make it sound interesting? nahh. its not.
trust me!

i missed out my first day of work.
and the kerani whom work at the door.sumpah kerek.
lets just skip that part

on my second day
i went for my first field trip.
i was excited when i got to work outside of the office
i was assigned to go to UiTM. hahah,back to school :(
but i was ok. i was able to learn how scada is and etc except that it was scorching hot.
so, i was kinda exhausted.
btw,the engineer im working with has an ear pierce. cool huh?
engineers now are cooler*

*subject to compare to hud's parents. :))

i had to pick ayah immediately after work as his plane was expected to land at 7pm.
i drove to LCCT with a minor headache and an empty stomach.
i was not a big deal to actually wait for ayah for half and hour but i guess that the headache was making me feel uncomfortable that i did say some words that might hurt ayah.
he went to bandung, and i gave him a short list of things he would be kind enough to buy for me.
but when i was at the airport, i told him that i would like to add a samsonite back pack to the list because here, it will cost me appoximately RM400.
i think that he did not hear me clearly,but he only remembered the key word was: Beg laptop
when he arrived, i catch the sight of the beg, and i was a bit frustrated, but hey, he bought me a beg.
and that is not something he, AYAH would do for me.

the third day was ok too.
except that i was so boring that i nearly fell asleep while i was doing my research
and yes.i did some research but i ended up receiving answers.spoon fed? nah! ive worked my ass out for it
i gave him an answer but the answer was wrong. (i got the idea)

the supervisor told me that there is nothing wrong getting an answer wrong.
afterall i am a trainee.very supporting aye?

*this post is actually a few weekss ago. haha.*

i have this pair of eyes as a gift and i use it everyday to see myself on the mirror
and you dont have to remind me that im fat,because practically i see myself everyday.MORE THAN you.
and thanks to you. i feel soo miserable that each time i feel like eating,it reminds me of you,you,and youu
i went back to kedah to visit my uncle whom was diagnosed with cancer.
i am not so sure abt what type of cancer because mom did not asked.
aunty ana(the uncle's wife) was crying when she called aunty maznah(my mom's sister).
and none of them asked when they were in kedah.
so the only thing i can tell is : he has a cancer.
they were hiding the real thing from the patient because aunty ana told them so.
nevertheless,i think that uncle azmi(the patient) knows.he was having hard time dealing with his unbearable pain and he himself cant explain what is he going through.

back to the main story,the one i wrote earlier.
will not explain in detail,but will write a few of statements mentioned

"li,kau dh kurus,anak2 kau pulak yg sihat"
"eh kau ni apsal sihat sgt" (time tgh makan)
"apsal hg dh gemuk?"
"sihat la na"

from the latest weighing session that i had.
my bmi is normal
and my fat mass is also decreasing
i may not be as skinny and as ringan as my other cousins.
and its impossible for me to be 49 or less as my tulang itself are 46.9 kg
and if 49.5 is thin for all of u to say that im kurus.
u are going to make me die of depression caused by all of u.
seteres btol

and now,i am going to make myself invisbile to all of u
i am not going to attend any family function or anything that will make me see any of u.
and once ive lost weight.

i am going to make u eat ur words till u r fat by eating them.
and thanks to you,u made me lost my self confidence.

my final is over.
agak cepat to compare to others. they have like another 2 paper.

got hints for 2 papers.
but for the first paper, the hint was kinda useless. perah otak smpai klua jus pn tak rse bole jawap.or is it just me
sometimes i wonder,those who got dean's list. mcmane la derang study.
maybe they skip the lepak part,the tengok wayang then gado ngan bf part. :) and the enjoy partying.
but for me,mana bole skip those part. im just a normal human being and a girl who likes the partying part. ngeh ngeh

speaking of which
a friend of mine told me that he,yes a he,want a easy come and easy go girlfriend
and why on earth am i going to support him by introducing him to someone i know
i suggested him to go the clubs and go get a girl
and he replied that he is not hot enough to do that.

im pretty sure he might read this.
from my way of seeing it:

• u nk org yg easy come easy go ( that proves ur self confidence level is very high since u think that u can just dump a girl anytime u want)
• hot is just a word and for me the meter of hotness depends on ur attitude not how u dress or how u look. (people nowdays judge others thru looks and how they dress, and i think that he is in this group,that is why he thinks that way)
• he lost like freaking 50 kg kot or more ( takkan la tak rase diri tuh hot)
• he can get any girl he want ( i guess) tp kenapa ya nk yg easy come easy go. (mungkin malas nk melayan)

so, to conclude the story, i did not take part on the devil plan.im just an observer.

i think that due to my agak long term relationship,we fought over the tiniest things.and i kept on losing my patient over things.
im this type of person who tend to keep quiet and will only spit everything out when im in total frustration or very mad.
things which can trigger me :

• lambat. (why la now i cannot wait, myb i inherited it frm hud.)
• lapar ( i know im fat, but i get hungry too.

usually,im okay with going out with another couple. but lately,myb due to lack of attention by hud.
i take the matter seriously. and when i sacrifice almost a day for my study to watch movie in order to fulfill hud's desire.
i would like it to be a moment for us, and yes only us to go out for a date.
we havent went out for a date since .... i cant remember cos we always end up lepaking with hud's friends
and it is not that i am not comfortable with his friends.some of them are ridiciously funny and easy to mingle with.
and hud told me that why didnt i say so?

like hello, he asked his friend wether he would like to join us and i should tell him i tanak die ikut sbb i nk kuar ngan u aje?
gila sellfish.haish la.

mummy said that myb seeing him or talking to him or doing things with him is already part of the routine and sometimes we tend to quarrel or argue just because dh muak. haha
how long are we talking abt here? br 4 years. how on earth people stays in a marriage for 40 years. incredible.

here is a photo of us :

dot and i joined fitness first last week or maybe the week before.i cant remember exactly
but i did my first session with the personal trainer and i am having aches everywhere
the only thing that i am comfortable doing is : standing without having anything to be done.haha

the personal trainer sorta bullied me. i think
and to be really honest, ive never gone thru such exercise before.sigh. kalau tak kurus, tak tau la
semua org skg pn nk kurus,ive got 2 friends whom were very fat and now they are thinner than me.see?argh.stress btol.

the final exam week is here and i dont think im prepare. im quite nervous cos ive done the reading a few times but i still cant figure out how the answer it.but i have faith.that " setiap usaha ada balasannye" hud always tell me that.

• heat and fluid 21 april
• control system II 22 april
• industrial instrumentation 26 april

im planing a trip to bandung with huds friends.after the final ends
we'll see how it goes.
they only wanna go there and shop.haha.

dyou know where kot came from. i kept on thinking but i coudnt figure it out.urm??

ive heard once on the radio; the topic of the day was : dyou baby talk with your partner

i am not sure abt all of u, but i am pretty sure i baby talk with my partner.
baby talk in this context is not the gugu gaga talk.
for me; i usually say makan as mamam/mam, tido as bom/bom bom/obok, baring as bim, merajuk as rajuk,tak nak as amau,bangun as angun and etc

now think of the things u usually say to your partner which turns out to be baby talk.hee. :-)

i have a place for my industrial training already.
speaking of which, i havent update with the faculty abt the industrial training procedure
dealing with the faculty is such a hassle compared to dealing with the company itself.well,i did not search for that place, but ayah did the talking and uncle wa got me a place for my pratical/industrial training
ayah was soo bising abt the allowance that i will be getting,but he has no worries now since ill be getting RM500.
RM500 its not that much. after substracting petrol,parking fees and tol fees; ill say ill be getting around 150-200max. *sigh*
i went to the office on last monday,and meet with the owner and my supervisor
i am quite excited and the things they would let me learn and explore are beyond my expectations
to be frankly honest, i tought that ill be photostating and making coffee only. haha.
but my supervisor told me, that i should let him now on things that i would like to do.
and yes, i did face the interview sorta session.

and the question was " what dyou think of our company"
i froze and hentam. i was lucky enough to at least surt the company's website. and the only thing i was able to came up with was " dealing with sensor and electronic devices".
i know my answer wasnt good enough but he seems statisfied.at least,im just a trainee,i did not went there as a worker.
if i did, i am 101% sure ill be prepared.
to potray to u how nervous i was, i did swing the chair a lil bit and when it came to my conscious. i stopped. *grrrr*

actually, i was in the middle of studying for my first paper this coming tuesday,and i was stuck at the pyschometric chart, so i cant really solve the other question.
was thinking that maybe the time(as it is already 5am)is a factor but did the re-thinking, and i figure out that im just plain lazy. that's all.haha

spotted nek with this very vintagy black sling bag and fell in love. naima's beg was such a cutie too,the colour is nice but im a little bit concern with the size since mom bought me this larger wallet and it difficult to fit in small purses.i have a few clutches,and im having a hard time putting the wallet it.
those bags are very difficult to find it here.
and she was sweet enough to reply me on my wall saying that she'll find me one.awww *touched*


got to go back to my reading and calculating.might be going melahap-ing with friends tomorrow.hee

i woke up late. it was already 8.10 and my lab usually starts at 8.30.
i drove like crazyy and i arrive exactly at 8.30 and to find out that my lab is at the old building.
dh la susah gila nk parking kat sana. sbb ramai sgt. u have to park kereta behind kereta  org and free gear.
so,bila nk keluar i had to push the front and the bar car so that i can go out.pelik but true.

the uni is being dumb and dumber. they are going to make all the students park at only 2 places and take shutter bus to class
semua parking utk staff.amboi.lemak gila staff.grr.
btw, when i enter the lab, i thought that the lecturer will not notice me. since im a good actress and tiba2 my otak bergeliga, i came out with the idea that i only bring, a pencil and put the pencil in my pocket so ill looked like i was back from the ladies or somewhere.

but it doesnt happen that way. *dushh*

the lecturer was like " hello young lady, why are u soo late? "
i looked at the watch and i told him ala,br 15 minute that i went to the new building, i tot it was there because the lab machine experiment was at the new building. and he nagged, bla bla bla.

and he told me to run around the room 4 times. with my hands down and legs up. i was this close of telling him " after u" but i remain quite and he asked wether i can do it or not. i told him i cant and he suggested me to go to a gym.speaking of which. che dot and me made this random decision of joining the fitness first. and yes, we signed the agreement for 1 year. now do the calculation, we have to pay rm185 X 12 months. haha. its a big whooping RM2220. lets just wait for 3-4 months to see the results. as i have to lost 13.9 kgs.yaa.im that fat.

ok,back to the lecturer story.
while the experiment is being done. he tried to make a fool out of himself which was suppose to be a joke or smthg but i found it not funny at all.
when we connected the wires for the connections wrong, he came and said " dyou want me to sing u a sad song? " and he sang a hindustan song which is very familiar but i cant seem to recall the exact words for the song.
and when i tried to on the power supply, he was like "boom". i was soo damn prepared and i was cool. tak terperanjat lgsg.

its kinda weird to find this kind of lecturer around since the others are very strict and old fashioned.
and fyi, i have another class at 6 pm but i am here after im almost there because my friend told me that she is not going.hehe